As life unfolds, you come to realizations that may or may not be intentional, but are necessary to some degree. Recently I was thinking about business, money, entrepreneurship and I had all these new ideas, philosophies and feelings around the idea of money, business and entrepreneurship. Lying in my bed, before drifting off to sleep I thought to myself “this isn’t like me, thinking like this” but the thoughts and ideas persisted… Almost as to say to myself, there’s no looking back, you have to evolve to move forward in life.
The thoughts were aligned around balance, harmony, equality and cooperation, as opposed to competition, injustice, imbalance and greed… aka: “Getting Mine”
My whole life i’ve wanted more, more money, more “stuff” (bullshit, essentially) as well as to ‘have it all’ to have a taste of the good life… To experience what felt like a void in my youth, the empty space of always feeling not good enough, not valuable enough, not rich enough. My entrepreneurial bug was sparked from the burning desire to have what others had, to experience what others experienced and at a deep deep level, to just fit in and feel part of a unconditionally loving tribe, as opposed to a judgmental, critical “tribe” of people.
My desire to have, achieve and become drew so deep that it corrupted the very true essence of who I was, of who I am. It led me to believe that when I get, when I have, when I become this person, the world will love me, I will love myself, and I will be happy. I will ‘arrive’ on a new level of stardom, awesomeness and on a floating cloud of gypsy dust and everyone in my presence will be in awe of my awesomeness. My ego was driven by greed, shit, maybe it still is to some degree, I’ll have to keep examining that.
The overindulgence on greed led me to become selfish, my time was my time, not your time, which led to impatience and disregard for the value of others and their time, which is really “our time” in reality. The greed led to an overabundance of selfishness, as opposed to an abundance of selflessness. A simple imbalance in the structure of my mind-body-spirit.
As time passed though, and I achieved some success in my entrepreneurial endeavors, was blessed to be able to live out a few of my material dreams I still felt the same anxiousness, discontent and overall deep hunger to satisfy my selfishness. As time has past, i’ve begun to realize that this selfishness, financial greed and envy of becoming a materialistic bloated pig has dissipated.
I began to realize that the richest moments of happiness, joy and contentment in my life stemmed from giving, sharing, empathy and compassion. The roots of all of the most valuable and joyful experiences in life stem from love and compassion. This was a new form of ‘Greed’ for me, a sort of evolution of the ego based greed to build myself higher and elevate my own monetary endeavors. This greed (desire) stemmed from helping, giving, sharing, transcending differences to find unity, cooperation and a positive outcome for everyone.
It wasn’t about me, it wasn’t even about “them” it was about us. How I could come to a place of understanding enough to come to a place of compassion and empathy to meet another individual, or group of people at a certain place in order to create a positive outcome for all involved.
This new form of “Greed” (Hungry desire) evolved to seek balance, cooperation and positively impacting everyone I come into contact with. To seek harmony, compassion and to seek operating out of love in every interaction in life. You are probably wondering, why is money bullshit? if you’ve read this far. To answer that question, have you thought about how important money is once while reading this article?
I sincerely hope that your deep desire for financial success transcends into a deep desire to make a positive impact on every distinct soul you touch. That’s the true beauty and happiness of life in it’s finest moments.
Until next time, Pura Vida!
- David King